To the guy who's going to say you love me.

do you?

what if i'm not the girl you thought i was?

or

what if i can't be the girl you wanted me to be?

there will be time

that im going to shut you down

maybe for hours

maybe for days

im going to tell you to find another girls

because i think im not good enough

but are you still going to choose me?

i will pushed you away

ask you to go

because i thought

you're going to leave me anyway.

i do loyalty

and sometimes it sucks

 for always being the one 

who got left behind

i gave a lot of me

and sometimes it sucks 

because in the end

i was drained

i believe on happy endings

and sunny-happy relationship

but it always ended up nothing but

dark, sad and lonely.

and i got to pick up all the broken pieces,

by myself

i'm going to be hard

but reckless.

but deeply inside

maybe i was nothing

but 

a beautiful chaos.

Love,

Paulin Charisma